More "Me!", "Me!", "Me!"...

July 31

My partner is still feeling a bit down.... and wonder of wonders - I'm starting to feel angry. If I didn't know any better, I'd say that I was jealous that someone else or something was making him feel depressed - and not me!... I should be the ONLY one who could make him feel depressed... Me! Me! Me!

...if i'm that inconsiderate, the next thing I would do would be to show him I'm irritable, angry for no reason at all. If he gets more depressed, i'd be happy because it means I'm still important to him... Me! Me! Me! - of course, instead of being of help to him i'd be another thing for him to worry about - which would feed my ego and make it feel better (sigh)

focus! focus! have to remember that i can't be the center of his world "all the time"...

...should be happy with "most of the time"

...or "half the time"

=(

It's Not Always About Me

I think I have this bad habit of making things always about "Me". It often happens when my special someone gets depressed... At the start I seem to be understanding (he has a stressful job), then I try to help.

But when he still is depressed, I start thinking, "hey, I'm here with you. You should be happy." and it's usually followed by, "Am I the reason you're depressed?"

Thankfully, most of the time, I don't say those thoughts out loud. But it has the bad effect of making me feel bad at the same time when someone needs my company. Those thoughts become a handicap making me unable to be genuinely concerned. It becomes about "me".

Your Chance to Test God

"Bring ye all the TITHES into the storehouse...
and PROVE me now, SAITH THE LORD of hosts,
if I will not open you the windows of heaven,
and pour you out a blessing,
that there SHALL NOT BE ROOM ENOUGH
to receive it."
-Malachi 3:10

This is my favorite Bible verse. I have difficulty with the idea of faith - the part that you believe in something you can't see. But this verse is simple: Give Tithe and God will bless me. Heck! He even challenges us to put Him to the test.

What is TITHE - It's simply 10% of everything you gain - income, allowance, interest, harvest... etc... If you earn $1000/month that means that $100 is your tithe. According to the Bible this Tithe belongs to God and SHOULD be returned to Him. In fact it's supposed to be Holy and SHOULD NOT be used even during life and death situations.

THE CHALLENGE:

Well, God himself said that we could test Him in this aspect... so if you decide to take up the challenge, when you receive your paycheck this end of the month, do the following:

1. Set aside 10% (Tithe) of your income - that's AFTER taxes and BEFORE again, BEFORE any bills or expenses.
2. Give the Tithe to your church immediately so that you won't be tempted to spend it. (It's not in God's hands if you still have it somewhere where you can get to it).
3. Wait for 1 month and see if God keeps His promise.

If you believe in God, you have nothing to loose, and a lot to gain.

If you don't believe in God, this is your chance to prove Him wrong.

Your Chance to Test God

"Bring ye all the TITHES into the storehouse...
and PROVE me now, SAITH THE LORD of hosts,
if I will not open you the windows of heaven,
and pour you out a blessing,
that there SHALL NOT BE ROOM ENOUGH
to receive it."
-Malachi 3:10

This is my favorite Bible verse. I have difficulty with the idea of faith - the part that you believe in something you can't see. But this verse is simple: Give Tithe and God will bless me. Heck! He even challenges us to put Him to the test.

What is TITHE - It's simply 10% of everything you gain - income, allowance, interest, harvest... etc... If you earn $1000/month that means that $100 is your tithe. According to the Bible this Tithe belongs to God and SHOULD be returned to Him. In fact it's supposed to be Holy and SHOULD NOT be used even during life and death situations.

THE CHALLENGE:

Well, God himself said that we could test Him in this aspect... so if you decide to take up the challenge, when you receive your paycheck this end of the month, do the following:

1. Set aside 10% (Tithe) of your income - that's AFTER taxes and BEFORE again, BEFORE any bills or expenses.
2. Give the Tithe to your church immediately so that you won't be tempted to spend it. (It's not in God's hands if you still have it somewhere where you can get to it).
3. Wait for 1 month and see if God keeps His promise.

If you believe in God, you have nothing to loose, and a lot to gain.

If you don't believe in God, this is your chance to prove Him wrong.

Clan Outing

-the private pool where we had our outing-

July 14-15, i joined the outing of my clan - all guys 'like me'. I didn't expect many members to attend and was hoping that at least 15 would go. Turned out 32 members went. We had a great time - wholesome, of course :) and most surprising of all was that there wasn't much overt flirting going on... Maybe at the next outing...

Fellowship

-this is my church during group discussion-

Do you participate in groups activities at your church or office place? I'm not really fond of such activities. I don't think i'm anti-social but somehow group activities with people i barely know really stress me out.

... They've said that participating in group activities strengthens your faith or promotes better atmosphere at work. What do you think?

In a Bubble

Its a big world out there but who are we fooling. Only a few of us realize that there is more to the world than what we are used to.
... We make our life a daily routine and blow small things out proportion so that they seem more important.
... We go to the same places, eat at the same restaurants, and see the same people. We always complain that everything is so 'routine' but we have difficulty admitting that we're afraid of new things.
... It's like we're inside a bubble we've created and thats the whole world to us. There are other places to go, other places to dine in, and other people to meet.
... When we feel suffocated we suddenly 'burst' out and do stupid things but when things calm down we find ourselves in unfamiliar territory and retreat back to our bubble.
... Its time we try to slowly expand our small world. Maybe blogging is one way to do that.

Test Mobile Blogging

Blogger has this feature for blogging from you mobile device. All u have to do is send an email to go@blogger.com and it'll get posted. If your device has a camera u can attach the picture and email it too.
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This picture was taken from out rooftop. Its just a 1.3 megapixel shot.

Money, the Root of Evil

The religion i belong to runs schools, hospitals, publishing houses. There have been many instances where the treasurers (sometimes with the help of higher administrators) of this establishments have secretly pocketed the money that passes through them.
...

Eventually they were found out but in all the instances i know of, none were brought to justice. Some of them even migrated to the US.
...

I'm curious - was it worth it? It seems that these people are actually living better lives while the institutions they stole from are in debt - or are they really happy?

3rd Eye

My friend who works the nightshift at a call center called me up because he was having difficulty sleeping. He said that he could feel spirits roaming around in the sleeping quarters of his company.
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I've never had an encounter with the supernatural but ive had many friends who seemed to have a very keen 3rd eye.
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How about you? Any experience with the supernatural?

Mobile Blogging with Pics

Yey! ve finally found a way to post to blogger with pictures from my cellphone! Thanks to opera mobile browser, flickr.com, and SMART - our service provider with 3G. I now can blog from almost anywhere.

now how to make the text wrap properly and how to add links to my posts...

My New Baby

i was never a fan of nokia but after my bitter experience with sony few months back, i was forced to have an affair with a nokia E50. i don't have any real complaints, its just that i don't like nokia.

after 6 months, i've finally moved on - my new baby the samsung sgh i600 phone - 3.5G, wifi, bluetooth, smartphone, qwerty keyboard, etc. etc.

i can finally update my blog through this device while in my room via our wireless internet connection. i'm happy... for the moment :P


...but i still cant attach photos via this device...

test post via email

this is a test post via email from my mobile phone. unfortunately i
can't seem to be able to attach any pictures to it.

test using palmtx

testing body text

Queer as Folk Season 1

I finally got a copy of the US version of season 1 of the Queer as Folk TV series... and i've since lost many hours of sleep. It's about the lives of 5 gay guys living in Pittsburg.

I can relate to a bit of every character:

Brian - I wish I was him
Michael - I don't wanna be like him, but...
Justin - If only i started out like him... and he's got Brian
Emmett - sometimes i wish i could be as flamboyant as him
Ted - I don't wanna end up like him

Have you watched even just a few episodes? What do you think about it?

*** Comments on Time To Move On: When? ***

May: I think I've moved on..., I think
DayByDay4-2day: I think i've spend so much time letting others determine what I can be and how far I can go that i don't really know how to do it myself. You're right. I'm going to make a post about it someday.

*** Comments on Try it On My Own ***
DayByDay4-2day: Whitney Houston :)