2011 was one hell of a year. It was the year I ran out of excuses to delay my residency training. I remember hoping that January 1 would never come. The first week of the year found me going (reluctantly) to different hospitals looking for what training slots were open. It was hard not knowing what field I wanted to specialize in. I was clueless.
I was also happy. I was in the best relationship I ever had. I had put my heart and soul into it, held nothing back. But like the song goes - "Flames to dust, lovers to friends. Why do all good things come to an end?" - it also came to an end a month before our 24th month. The song "Nag-iisa, Wala Ka na" suddenly felt oh so much more personal.
The next 2 relationships were short-lived - my fault. I was still a wreck. Maybe I still am now. In the past 2 months I've met and/or dated 22 persons! It's just like when I was looking for a specialization to train in - I don't know what I'm looking for.
And as for my training, it is everything I feared it would be.
Now that I feel totally shrouded in dark clouds, I'm thankful for every ray of light that shines through.