July 31
My partner is still feeling a bit down.... and wonder of wonders - I'm starting to feel angry. If I didn't know any better, I'd say that I was jealous that someone else or something was making him feel depressed - and not me!... I should be the ONLY one who could make him feel depressed... Me! Me! Me!
...if i'm that inconsiderate, the next thing I would do would be to show him I'm irritable, angry for no reason at all. If he gets more depressed, i'd be happy because it means I'm still important to him... Me! Me! Me! - of course, instead of being of help to him i'd be another thing for him to worry about - which would feed my ego and make it feel better (sigh)
focus! focus! have to remember that i can't be the center of his world "all the time"...
...should be happy with "most of the time"
...or "half the time"
=(
