It took 5 years before I finally pushed myself to start residency training. I hated the fact that I would have no time of my own once I started training.
Now, after almost 2 years into my training, I am being coaxed to plan when and where to spend the 15 days vacation leave given to us every year. Reality is I can't afford to go anywhere. What's worse is I don't really feel like going anywhere. Maybe things would be different if there was that "someone" I could spend time with.
I was always afraid that residency would rob me of time for myself. I never expected that I would have some time off and yet have no desire to use it.