The Summer Capital

This past Christmas, our family headed to Baguio City, the summer capital of the Philippines.

This Lion's Head is the first landmark along the scenic Kenon Road that let's you know you've arrived.

The Simplest Explanation...

1993-1995

After my first "best friend", i went through puberty :) It was when I was in 3rd year highschool (we have 4 years in high school) that i found another "best friend". Unlike the 1st, this time I actually was in the same group as him so it wasn't difficult to actually become a friend.

I enjoyed spending time, helping in homework, giving advice, etc etc. Although occasionally I couldn't help but notice that he had broad shoulders and a V-shaped back... I just pushed it out of my mind.

... Then he started courting this girl... everything went downhill. I found myself waiting for him (at least his call) that he had come home during the evenings, i literally demanded to know when he was all the time, i couldn't understand what I felt (later known as jealousy) when the 2 of them were together. It even came to a point that I thought I was jealous because I also liked the girl!

Highschool became torture for me. I couldn't understand why I was feeling those emotions... anger, envy, jealousy... i knew i should be happy for him... but it was hard to be.

There were many many sleepless nights - tossing and turning, worrying... maybe worrying that they were getting intimate. I tried to reason to myself that it was normal. I tried to explain why i was reacting this way but nothing could explain everything.

Then I thought - what if I was in-love with my bestfriend?

Everything fell into place.

But it was too late for me. I was in-love with my best friend. If only I knew it was possible, I wouldn't allow it to come this far.

Unmotivated

Here I go again... I've so many things I wanna blog about but I seem to be too lazy to get started. How do you get to blog about stuff regularly. Stress has always been a good motivator for me to blog. So if i don't post often, it means i'm perfectly OK :)

Unmotivated

Here I go again... I've so many things I wanna blog about but I seem to be too lazy to get started. How do you get to blog about stuff regularly. Stress has always been a good motivator for me to blog. So if i don't post often, it means i'm perfectly OK :)