Everyday that has passed by since my last post, I have been fighting the urge to reach out, just drop and forget my issues, and let things go back to the way it was. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't fight it and just give in... but somehow I want more time to think things over, to be able to clearly know what I want.
I wish I had no choice - because then all that would be left for me to do would be to accept. But I have a choice, and every hour of the day I'm torn over which of the choices to act on.
It's not as simple as asking, "do I love him?"
I feel your frustrations, matters of the heart are always the most tormenting. I hope you find some peace soon.
ReplyDeleteour heart is a complicated thing. nothing is ever so simple when it comes to love.
ReplyDeletefor me a often have to choose to stay in a relationship that sometimes hurts more to stay in then it might to leave. So you see that all relationship involve asking ourself is it as simple as I love him?
ReplyDeleteI thought it was time to stop by and say that I was thinking of you.... 1000's of miles away. hugs
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