Today
Summer is over, the rains have come.
Its times like these that I miss him. Even thought I still love him, I remember that in our 2 years together we never kissed, his hugs were only during extreme emotions, and i could always sense disgust after sex.
He loved me, that i'm am sure of. And he was hoping, i know, that somehow I would be contented with what he could give.
I hate myself for wanting more.
Rygel,
ReplyDeleteI don't understand why you hate yourself for wanting more...wanting more is the natural thing. A relationship without kissing, hugging, commitment would leave any of us wanting more. I really believe you will find another love someday - someone that will appreciate you and want to be with you as much as you want to be with him.
I'm not minimizing your feelings at all, I understand that horrible aching that is so intense sometimes you wonder how you will even get through it... but we do.
Hug to you my friend.
i think facing the pain and looking it in the eye so to speak, will help you deal with it better. so, don't beat yourself up for feeling the pain. it is normal.
ReplyDeletehang in there...
I have to agree with layla. You deserve more and you will get more, just not with him.
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